Thread Of Topiclessness [Current Era: Fancy headwear]

[breakdanzkat]

Just randomly thought of this community so I checked if it's still up.

I left discord but I might check it out again to see what everyone's up to.

Also life update 3 years after the last one. 23 now, just finished school and I'll start full-time work in June in the semiconductor industry. I started playing Pokemon again since last year and I'm currently anticipating the DPPt remakes (hopefully).

[Kinfin]

A reminder. A lot of us were dumb ass teens back when we frequented this place and said stupid stuff. Most of us have matured since then, and holding stuff from nearly a decade ago over somebody is stupid. Talking to a certain person in particular when I say this.

[Kinfin]

A message I tried to send to Aryeh before realizing we weren’t discord friends.

“ For the record, bringing up something someone said in frustration when they were at an immature state of their lives is a sign of lack of personal growth.

I didn’t rage quit. I realized that I’m not connected to anyone from that server anymore and that if the place is going to frequently become political, it’s best for my own mental state that I stay away. Especially from people who consistently rub me the wrong way.

I’m sorry I’m not eloquent. Never have been. Probably won’t change. But what has changed is my maturity, my ability to let go, and my willingness to table care of my mental health. Something that I certainly hope the other two members of that group eventually learn as well.”

[Miku the Fake Identity]

I’ve done a lot of reflecting on this website and how it shaped me into who I am now. And I relized just how much it messed me up. I was way too young to be on here, interacting with people calling me their loli and whatnot. I realized that I fear sending my photograph to people because of how many times my face and voice and video presence got memed. I think this website may be where I started feeling like nobody took me seriously, and that’s been a constant theme throughout my life. Fun.

Looking back? I think i miss the idea of this community and what it was more than I actually miss it. I’m a lot different than I was when I was younger, thanks to various (usually negative) interpersonal relationships and self discovery that was sparked by mental illness. The two times I was in the discord made me realize that I probably don’t fit in with this community as I am now, and that’s fine.

Another personal update, while I’m here I suppose. I’m 21 now. Hard to believe it’s been that long. I’ve been with my current boyfriend for almost 3 and a half years. He’s very patient when dealing with me, which is perfect. I’ve used they/them pronouns for the past couple years after a long while of struggling with my identity. English (writing) major with an art minor in university, my junior year. Hoping to go for a masters in library sciences. It suits me a lot more than computer science ever did. I’ve made a lot of fantastic friends through my college’s Smash Bros club, which I’m the president of. Love every second of it. Things are hard now, but I’ve cut out toxic people from my life and am starting to be a little more stable overall again. That’s really all I can ask for.

I felt like gravity was weighing down on me more than ever while writing this. Thinking about this website and returning always made me nervous and afraid. I loved my time here and cherish most of the memories, but I don’t miss it. Thank you guys for being a part of my life.

holy shit you're alive

i wish you well in life

[Miku the Fake Identity]

A message I tried to send to Aryeh before realizing we weren’t discord friends.

“ For the record, bringing up something someone said in frustration when they were at an immature state of their lives is a sign of lack of personal growth.

I didn’t rage quit. I realized that I’m not connected to anyone from that server anymore and that if the place is going to frequently become political, it’s best for my own mental state that I stay away. Especially from people who consistently rub me the wrong way.

I’m sorry I’m not eloquent. Never have been. Probably won’t change. But what has changed is my maturity, my ability to let go, and my willingness to table care of my mental health. Something that I certainly hope the other two members of that group eventually learn as well.”

hope you, kloud and the kids are doing well my friend

[Miku the Fake Identity]

Just randomly thought of this community so I checked if it's still up.

I left discord but I might check it out again to see what everyone's up to.

Also life update 3 years after the last one. 23 now, just finished school and I'll start full-time work in June in the semiconductor industry. I started playing Pokemon again since last year and I'm currently anticipating the DPPt remakes (hopefully).

https://discord.gg/7RzYeB

come!